书城公版Sir Gibbie
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第38章

Alas for the human soul inhabiting a drink-fouled brain! It is a human soul still, and wretched in the midst of all that whisky can do for it.From the pit of hell it cries out.So long as there is that which can sin, it is a man.And the prayer of misery carries its own justification, when the sober petitions of the self-righteous and the unkind are rejected.He who forgives not is not forgiven, and the prayer of the Pharisee is as the weary beating of the surf of hell, while the cry of a soul out of its fire sets the heart-strings of love trembling.There are sins which men must leave behind them, and sins which they must carry with them.

Society scouts the drunkard because he is loathsome, and it matters nothing whether society be right or wrong, while it cherishes in its very bosom vices which are, to the God-born thing we call the soul, yet worse poisons.Drunkards and sinners, hard as it may be for them to enter into the kingdom of heaven, must yet be easier to save than the man whose position, reputation, money, engross his heart and his care, who seeks the praise of men and not the praise of God.

When I am more of a Christian, I shall have learnt to be sorrier for the man whose end is money or social standing than for the drunkard.

But now my heart, recoiling from the one, is sore for the other--for the agony, the helplessness, the degradation, the nightmare struggle, the wrongs and cruelties committed, the duties neglected, the sickening ruin of mind and heart.So often, too, the drunkard is originally a style of man immeasurably nobler than the money-maker! Compare a Coleridge, Samuel Taylor or Hartley, with--no; that man has not yet passed to his account.God has in his universe furnaces for the refining of gold, as well as for the burning of chaff and tares and fruitless branches; and, however they may have offended, it is the elder brother who is the judge of all the younger ones.

Gibbie slept some time.When he woke, it was pitch dark, and he was not lying on his father's bosom, He felt about with his hands till he found his father's head.Then he got up and tried to rouse him, and failing to get him on to the bed.But in that too he was sadly unsuccessful: what with the darkness and the weight of him, the result of the boy's best endeavour was, that Sir George half slipped, half rolled down upon the box, and from that to the floor.

Assured then of his own helplessness, wee Gibbie dragged the miserable bolster from the bed, and got it under his father's head;then covered him with the plaid, and creeping under it, laid himself on his father's bosom, where soon he slept again.

He woke very cold, and getting up, turned heels-over-head several times to warm himself, but quietly, for his father was still asleep.

The room was no longer dark, for the moon was shining through the skylight.When he had got himself a little warmer, he turned to have a look at his father.The pale light shone full upon his face, and it was that, Gibbie thought, which made him look so strange.He darted to him, and stared aghast: he had never seen him look like that before, even when most drunk! He threw himself upon him: his face was dreadfully cold.He pulled and shook him in fear--he could not have told of what, but he would not wake.He was gone to see what God could do for him there, for whom nothing more could be done here.

But Gibbie did not know anything about death, and went on trying to wake him.At last he observed that, although his mouth was wide open, the breath did not come from it.Thereupon his heart began to fail him.But when he lifted an eyelid, and saw what was under it, the house rang with the despairing shriek of the little orphan.