"Noo," she said, when he had finished his draught, "ye maun jist mak the best o' it, Angus.Ony gait, it's a guid lesson in patience to ye, an' that ye haena had ower aften, I'm thinkin'--Robert'll be here er lang."With these words she set down the teapot, and went out: it was time to milk her cow.
In a little while Gibbie rose, tried to walk, but failed, and getting down on his hands and knees, crawled out after her.Angus caught a glimpse of his face as he crept past him, and then first recognized the boy he had lashed.Not compunction, but an occasional pang of dread lest he should have been the cause of his death, and might come upon his body in one of his walks, had served so to fix his face in his memory, that, now he had a near view of him, pale with suffering and loss of blood and therefore more like his former self, he knew him beyond a doubt.With a great shoot of terror he concluded that the idiot had been lying there silently gloating over his revenge, waiting only till Janet should be out of sight, and was now gone after some instrument wherewith to take it.
He pulled and tugged at his bonds, but only to find escape absolutely hopeless.In gathering horror, he lay moveless at last, but strained his hearing towards every sound.
Not only did Janet often pray with Gibbie, but sometimes as she read, her heart would grow so full, her soul be so pervaded with the conviction, perhaps the consciousness, of the presence of the man who had said he would be always with his friends, that, sitting there on her stool, she would begin talking to him out of the very depth of her life, just as if she saw him in Robert's chair in the ingle-neuk, at home in her cottage as in the house where Mary sat at his feet and heard his word.Then would Gibbie listen indeed, awed by very gladness.He never doubted that Jesus was there, or that Janet saw him all the time although he could not.
This custom of praying aloud, she had grown into so long before Gibbie came to her, and he was so much and such a child, that his presence was no check upon the habit.It came in part from the intense reality of her belief, and was in part a willed fostering of its intensity.She never imagined that words were necessary; she believed that God knew her every thought, and that the moment she lifted up her heart, it entered into communion with him; but the very sound of the words she spoke seemed to make her feel nearer to the man who, being the eternal Son of the Father, yet had ears to hear and lips to speak, like herself.To talk to him aloud, also kept her thoughts together, helped her to feel the fact of the things she contemplated, as well as the reality of his presence.
Now the byre was just on the other side of the turf wall against which was the head of Gibbie's bed, and through the wall Gibbie had heard her voice, with that something in the tone of it which let him understand she was not talking to Crummie, but to Crummie's maker;and it was therefore he had got up and gone after her.For there was no reason, so far as he knew or imagined, why he should not hear, as so many times before, what she was saying to the Master.
He supposed that as she could not well speak to him in the presence of a man like Angus, she had gone out to the byre to have her talk with him there.He crawled to the end of the cottage so silently that she heard no sound of his approach.He would not go into the byre, for that might disturb her, for she would have to look up to know that it was only Gibbie; he would listen at the door.He found it wide open, and peeping in, saw Crummie chewing away, and Janet on her knees with her forehead leaning against the cow and her hands thrown up over her shoulder.She spoke in such a voice of troubled entreaty as he had never heard from her before, but which yet woke a strange vibration of memory in his deepest heart.--Yes, it was his father's voice it reminded him of! So had he cried in prayer the last time he ever heard him speak.What she said was nearly this:
"O Lord, gin ye wad but say what ye wad hae deen! Whan a body disna ken yer wull, she's jist driven to distraction.Thoo knows, my Maister, as weel's I can tell ye, 'at gien ye said till me, 'That man's gauin' to cut yer thro't: tak the tows frae him, an' lat him up,' I wad rin to dee't.It's no revenge, Lord; it's jist 'at Idinna ken.The man's dune me no ill, 'cep' as he's sair hurtit yer bonnie Gibbie.It's Gibbie 'at has to forgie 'im an' syne me.But my man tellt me no to lat him up, an' hoo am I to be a wife sic as ye wad hae, O Lord, gien I dinna dee as my man tellt me! It wad ill befit me to lat my auld Robert gang sae far wantin' his denner, a'
for naething.What wad he think whan he cam hame! Of coorse, Lord, gien ye tellt me, that wad mak a' the differ, for ye're Robert's maister as weel's mine, an' your wull wad saitisfee him jist as weel's me.I wad fain lat him gang, puir chiel! but I daurna.
Lord, convert him to the trowth.Lord, lat him ken what hate is.--But eh, Lord! I wuss ye wad tell me what to du.Thy wull's the beginnin' an' mids an' en' o' a' thing to me.I'm wullin'
eneuch to lat him gang, but he's Robert's pris'ner an' Gibbie's enemy; he's no my pris'ner an' no my enemy, an' I dinna think I hae the richt.An' wha kens but he micht gang shottin' mair fowk yet, 'cause I loot him gang!--But he canna shot a hare wantin' thy wull, O Jesus, the Saviour o' man an' beast; an' ill wad I like to hae a han' i' the hangin' o' 'm.He may deserve 't, Lord, I dinna ken;but I'm thinkin' ye made him no sae weel tempered--as my Robert, for enstance."Here her voice ceased, and she fell a moaning.