It is no vaunt to affirm that if Nicholas had had ten thousand pounds at the minute, he would, in his generous affection for the owner of the blushing cheek and downcast eye, have bestowed its utmost farthing, in perfect forgetfulness of himself, to secure her happiness. But all he could do was to comfort and console her by kind words; and words they were of such love and kindness, and cheerful encouragement, that poor Kate threw her arms about his neck, and declared she would weep no more.
`What man,' thought Nicholas proudly, while on his way, soon afterwards, to the brothers' house, `would not be sufficiently rewarded for any sacrifice of fortune by the possession of such a heart as Kate's, which, but that hearts weigh light, and gold and silver heavy, is beyond all praise? Frank has money, and wants no more. Where would it buy him such a treasure as Kate? And yet, in unequal marriages, the rich party is always supposed to make a great sacrifice, and the other to get a good bargain! But I am thinking like a lover, or like an ass: which I suppose is pretty nearly the same.'
Checking thoughts so little adapted to the business on which he was bound, by such self-reproofs as this and many others no less sturdy, he proceeded on his way and presented himself before Tim Linkinwater.
`Ah! Mr Nickleby!' cried Tim, `God bless you! how d'ye do? Well? Say you're quite well and never better--do now.'
`Quite,' said Nicholas, shaking him by both hands.
`Ah!' said Tim, `you look tired though, now I come to look at you. Hark!
there he is, d'ye hear him? That was ****, the blackbird. He hasn't been himself since you've been gone. He'd never get on without you, now; he takes as naturally to you as he does to me.'
`**** is a far less sagacious fellow than I supposed him, if he thinks I am half so well worthy of his notice as you,' replied Nicholas.
`Why, I'll tell you what, sir,' said Tim, standing in his favourite attitude and pointing to the cage with the feather of his pen, `it's a very extraordinary thing about that bird, that the only people he ever takes the smallest notice of, are Mr Charles, and Mr Ned, and you, and me.'
Here, Tim stopped and glanced anxiously at Nicholas; then unexpectedly catching his eye repeated, `And you and me, sir, and you and me.' And then he glanced at Nicholas again, and, squeezing his hand, said, `I am a bad one at putting off anything I am interested in. I didn't mean to ask you, but I should like to hear a few particulars about that poor boy. Did he mention Cheeryble Brothers at all?'
`Yes,' said Nicholas, `many and many a time.'
`That was right of him,' returned Tim, wiping his eyes; `that was very right of him.'
`And he mentioned your name a score of times,' said Nicholas, `and often bade me carry back his love to Mr Linkinwater.'
`No, no, did he though?' rejoined Tim, sobbing outright. `Poor fellow!
I wish we could have had him buried in town. There isn't such a burying-ground in all London as that little one on the other side of the square--there are counting-houses all round it, and if you go in there, on a fine day, you can see the books and safes through the open windows. And he sent his love to me, did he? I didn't expect he would have thought of me. Poor fellow, poor fellow! His love too!'
Tim was so completely overcome by this little mark of recollection, that he was quite unequal to any more conversation at the moment. Nicholas therefore slipped quietly out, and went to brother Charles's room.
If he had previously sustained his firmness and fortitude, it had been by an effort which had cost him no little pain; but the warm welcome, the hearty manner, the homely unaffected commiseration, of the good old man, went to his heart, and no inward struggle could prevent his showing it.
`Come, come, my dear sir,' said the benevolent merchant; `we must not be cast down; no, no. We must learn to bear misfortune, and we must remember that there are many sources of consolation even in death. Every day that this poor lad had lived, he must have been less and less qualified for the world, and more and more unhappy in is own deficiencies. It is better as it is, my dear sir. Yes, yes, yes, it's better as it is.'
`I have thought of all that, sir,' replied Nicholas, clearing his throat.
`I feel it, I assure you.'
`Yes, that's well,' replied Mr Cheeryble, who, in the midst of all his comforting, was quite as much taken aback as honest old Tim; `that's well.
Where is my brother Ned? Tim Linkinwater, sir, where is my brother Ned?'
`Gone out with Mr Trimmers, about getting that unfortunate man into the hospital, and sending a nurse to his children,' said Tim.
`My brother Ned is a fine fellow--a great fellow!' exclaimed brother Charles as he shut the door and returned to Nicholas. `He will be overjoyed to see you, my dear sir. We have been speaking of you every day.'
`To tell you the truth, sir, I am glad to find you alone,' said Nicholas, with some natural hesitation; `for I am anxious to say something to you.
Can you spare me a very few minutes?'
`Surely, surely,' returned brother Charles, looking at him with an anxious countenance. `Say on, my dear sir, say on.'
`I scarcely know how, or where, to begin,' said Nicholas. `If ever one mortal had reason to be penetrated with love and reverence for another:
with such attachment as would make the hardest service in his behalf a pleasure and delight: with such grateful recollections as must rouse the utmost zeal and fidelity of his nature: those are the feelings which Ishould entertain for you, and do, from my heart and soul, believe me!'