You abuse my situation,Janet,said the Countess,angrily,and you forget your own.I do neither,dearest madam,said the sorrowful maiden;but have you forgotten that the noble Earl has given such strict charges to keep your marriage secret,that he may preserve his court-favour?and can you think that your sudden appearance at his castle,at such a juncture,and in such a presence,will be acceptable to him?Thou thinkest I would disgrace him,said the Countess;nay,let go my arm,I can walk without aid and work without counsel.Be not angry with me,lady,said Janet meekly,and let me still support you;the road is rough,and you are little accustomed to walk in darkness.If you deem me not so mean as may disgrace my husband,said the Countess,in the same resentful tone,you suppose my Lord of Leicester capable of abetting,perhaps of giving aim and authority to,the base proceedings of your father and Varney,whose errand I will do to the good Earl.For God's sake,madam,spare my father in your report,said Janet;let my services,however poor,be some atonement for his errors!I were most unjust,dearest Janet,were it otherwise,said the Countess,resuming at once the fondness and confidence of her manner towards her faithful attendant,No,Janet,not a word of mine shall do your father prejudice.But thou seest,my love,Ihave no desire but to throw my self on my husband's protection.
I have left the abode he assigned for me,because of the villainy of the persons by whom I was surrounded;but I will disobey his commands in no other particular.I will appeal to him alone--Iwill be protected by him alone;to no other,than at his pleasure,have I or will I communicate the secret union which combines our hearts and our destinies.I will see him,and receive from his own lips the directions for my future conduct.
Do not argue against my resolution,Janet;you will only confirm me in it.And to own the truth,I am resolved to know my fate at once,and from my husband's own mouth;and to seek him at Kenilworth is the surest way to attain my purpose.While Janet hastily revolved in her mind the difficulties and uncertainties attendant on the unfortunate lady's situation,she was inclined to alter her first opinion,and to think,upon the whole,that since the Countess had withdrawn herself from the retreat in which she had been placed by her husband,it was her first duty to repair to his presence,and possess him with the reasons for such conduct.She knew what importance the Earl attached to the concealment of their marriage,and could not but own,that by taking any step to make it public without his permission,the Countess would incur,in a high degree,the indignation of her husband.If she retired to her father's house without an explicit avowal of her rank,her situation was likely greatly to prejudice her character;and if she made such an avowal,it might occasion an irreconcilable breach with her husband.At Kenilworth,again,she might plead her cause with her husband himself,whom Janet,though distrusting him more than the Countess did,believed incapable of being accessory to the base and desperate means which his dependants,from whose power the lady was now escaping,might resort to,in order to stifle her complaints of the treatment she had received at their hands.
But at the worst,and were the Earl himself to deny her justice and protection,still at Kenilworth,if she chose to make her wrongs public,the Countess might have Tressilian for her advocate,and the Queen for her judge;for so much Janet had learned in her short conference with Wayland.She was,therefore,on the whole,reconciled to her lady's proposal of going towards Kenilworth,and so expressed herself;recommending,however,to the Countess the utmost caution in ****** her arrival known to her husband,Hast thou thyself been cautious,Janet?said the Countess;this guide,in whom I must put my confidence,hast thou not entrusted to him the secret of my condition?From me he has learned nothing,said Janet;nor do I think that he knows more than what the public in general believe of your situation.And what is that?said the lady.
That you left your father's house--but I shall offend you again if I go on,said Janet,interrupting herself.
Nay,go on,said the Countess;I must learn to endure the evil report which my folly has brought upon me.They think,Isuppose,that I have left my father's house to follow lawless pleasure.It is an error which will soon be removed--indeed it shall,for I will live with spotless fame,or I shall cease to live.--I am accounted,then,the paramour of my Leicester?Most men say of Varney,said Janet;yet some call him only the convenient cloak of his master's pleasures;for reports of the profuse expense in garnishing yonder apartments have secretly gone abroad,and such doings far surpass the means of Varney.