书城外语魅力英文ⅵ:幸福从心开始
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第18章 抓住生命里的那颗星 (7)

Later, sitting at one of the many bars on the resort, sipping the local cocktails they began to talk. First?pleasantries their hotels, the quality of the food and friendliness of the locals. Their conversation was strangely hesitant considering the naturalness and confidence of their earlier meeting. Onlookers, however, would have detected the subtle flirtation as they mirrored each other’s actions and looked directly into each other’s eyes. Only later, after the alcohol had had its loosening effect, did the conversation deepen. They talked of why they were here and finally, against her better judgment, Lisa opened up about her heartache of the past year and how events had led her back to the place where she had married the only man she believed she could ever love. She told him of things that had been locked deep inside her, that she had so far been able to tell no one. She told him how she had felt after she had lost her baby.

She was six months pregnant and the happiest she had ever been when the pains had started. She was staying with her mother as James was working out of town. He hadn’t made it back in time. The doctor had said it was just one of those things and that they could try again. But how could she when she couldn’t even look James in the eye? She hated him then, for not being there, for not hurting as much as her; but most of all she hated him for looking so much like the tiny baby boy that she held for just three hours before they took him away. All through the following months she had withdrawn from her husband, family, and friends not wanting to recover from the pain she felt that would have been a betrayal of her son. At the funeral she had refused to stand next to her husband and the next day she had left him.

Looking up, Lisa could see her pain reflected in the man’s eyes. For the first time in months she didn’t feel alone, she felt the unbearable burden begin to lift from her only a bit, but it was a start. She began to believe that maybe she had a future after all and maybe it could be with this man, with his kind hazel eyes, wet with their shared tears.

They had come here to dissolve their marriage, but maybe there was hope. Lisa stood up and took James by the hand and led him away from the bar towards the beach where they had made their vows to each other three years ago. Tomorrow she would cancel the divorce; tonight they would work on renewing their promises.

莉萨伫立在加勒比海边,面向着大海,感受微风轻拂脸颊。她闭上双眼,裸露的脚趾间拥满了温暖的沙粒。这个地方美得简直令人难以置信,但回忆起上次在这里的情景,此般美景依然无法抚慰心中的伤痛。

三年前的今天,莉萨就是在这里和詹姆斯结婚的。她身着简洁的白色长礼裙,小小的白玫瑰服贴、点缀着她又黑又长的卷发,如此的幸福感是她从未有过的。詹姆斯的装扮更休闲,一条带摺的清凉夏裤和一件宽松的白色棉质衬衫,配上一头稍稍凌乱的黑发,然而他看上去依然是魅力非凡,当他凝视着自己的准新娘时,眼神里写满了爱意。他们手牵手,聆听太平绅士宣读他们的誓言。他们为年轻而欢呼,为爱情而雀跃,为身处多米尼加共和国加勒比岛屿的五星级胜地而陶醉。他们似乎看到未来的幸福之路在眼前展开,直至相携到老。他们商量着生孩子的事,她说要两个,他却想要四个,最终各退一步,决定生三个(当然是两女一男)。他们计划着安居的地方,计划着一起旅游。所有事情都显得顺理成章,或者大约他们当时便想到这些。

然而这一切似乎是许久以前的事了,短短几年时间就可能发生许多变故。太多的伤痛可以改变一个人,可以破坏最牢固的关系,甚至可以摧毁最刻骨的爱情。三年后的今天,他们又回到了这个岛上,但并非因为此地闻名的海滨婚礼,而是因为此地同样闻名的闪电离婚。

莉萨深深地叹了一口气,带出了心中的痛苦和悲伤。除了继续前行,寻找新生活和新梦想她还能做什么呢?毕竟旧的已经无法弥补。这里有繁茂的绿色海岸线、无边的蔚蓝大海和绵延的沙滩,可是现在如此美丽的地方怎么就成了她心中无法隐忍的痛?

一个男子站在棕榈树下,目不转睛地注视着这位黑发女子:她伫立在水边,凝望着大海,显然像是在等待什么或是某人。她很美,身段修长,一袭宽松的棉质裙与头发在风中起舞,那双明亮的蓝眼睛,美得简直可以与大海的颜色相媲美。然而吸引他的并非她的容貌,作为一名自由摄影师,因为工作上的关系,他见过的美女无数。吸引他的是她的落寞和深情。尽管隔着一些距离,但是他仍能感觉到她是不同于他所见过的任何其他女性的。

未曾转身,莉萨便察觉到了男人在靠近。她早已发觉他站在远处盯凝着她,奇怪的是,她并没有因为被注视而感到不自在。她看着他,瞬间闪过一丝心灵相通的火花,这样的碰撞以前只有过一次。他慢慢地向她走近,两人的目光相遇了。他们就像见到一个失去联络很久的朋友而不是在陌生的地方遇见一个陌生人。

过了一会儿,他们在附近林立的酒吧里找了一间坐了下来。啜饮着当地的鸡尾酒,开始交谈。最初是谈论一些有趣的事,聊他们住的酒店,食物的品质以及当地人的友好热情。然而再深入下去时,相比之前见面的自然和从容,他们的谈话便莫名地犹豫不前了。尽管如此,从他们端详对方的举止和直视对方眼睛的神态中,旁观者还是能洞悉到些许微妙的暧昧。直到酒精逐渐发挥了让人放松的效力,谈话才继续深入下去。他们谈论着来此地的原因,最后,虽然明知不太适宜,莉萨仍将她去年所经历的痛苦尽数道出,以及是什么事情让她又回到了这里在这儿,她嫁给了一个曾以为会深爱一生的男人。她将一直锁在心底、至今仍无法向他人启齿的话倾吐了出来,并向他倾诉失去宝宝后悲痛的心情。

那时她已怀孕六个月,还是世界上最幸福的人。直到事情发生的前一刻。当时她和母亲待在一起,詹姆斯在郊外工作,没能及时赶回来。医生说这是很平常的事情,他们还有机会。然而她无法做到,她连正视詹姆斯的眼睛都办不到。她恨他,恨他当时不在身边,恨他没有自己那么伤心,更恨他和仅仅在自己怀里躺了三个小时就被抱走的儿子如此相像。接下来的几个月,她远离了丈夫、家庭和朋友,不愿从伤痛中走出来她觉得那样做是对儿子的背叛。在葬礼上,她拒绝站在丈夫旁边。第二天,她便离开了他。

抬起头,莉萨读出自己的伤痛映满了男人的双眼。几个月来,她第一次不再感到孤独,她感到压得她喘不过气来的担子开始减轻,尽管只有一点点,但起码这是个开始。她开始相信自己还是有未来的,也许是和眼前这个男人、也许是和他这双温柔的淡褐色眼睛里面噙着他们共同的泪花。

他们来此本为结束他们的婚姻,但也许事情还有转机。她站起身,牵起詹姆斯的手,领着他走出酒吧,走向他们三年前互相许下诺言的沙滩。明天,她会取消离婚,今晚,他们将重续承诺。

Youth青春

Between the darkness of earth and heaven she was burning fiercely upon a disc of purple sea shot by the blood-red play of gleams; upon a disc of water glittering and sinister. A high, clear flame, an immense and lonely flame, ascended from the ocean, and from its summit the black smoke poured continuously at the sky. She burned furiously, mournful and imposing like a funeral pile kindled in the night, surround-ed by the sea, watched over by the stars.

A magnificent death had come like a grace, like a gift, like a reward to that old ship at the end of her laborious days. The surrender of her weary ghost to the keeping of stars and sea was stirring like the sight of a glorious triumph. The masts fell just before daybreak, and for a moment there was a burst and turmoil of sparks that seemed to fill with flying fire the night patient and watchful, the vast night lying silent upon the sea.

在黑暗的天地之间,船在熊熊燃烧,周围海面在血红的火光的照耀下呈紫色,闪闪发亮,杀气腾腾。一个高大、明亮、孤独的巨大火柱在海面上升起,火柱的顶端不停地朝空中喷着黑烟。船轰轰烈烈地燃烧着,极为悲壮,恰似在黑夜里点燃的火葬柴堆,由大海护卫,由星星照看。

这艘老破船度过了辛苦的一生,最终迎来了辉煌的死亡,如同蒙受天恩,如同领赏获奖。它将自己疲惫的灵魂交给了星星和大海,这一幕真像壮观的胜利庆典一样令人激动。桅杆在黎明将至时倒下,刹那间 火星四处乱迸,飞舞的火花似乎一下子洒满了耐心看护的夜空,洒满了海面上那浩淼静谧的夜空。